To Pray For Birth

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I vaguely remember

A promise I made

To the world, to all around

To join heaven side 

Sober as the day I came 

But like everything else in life

"Easier said than done"

Watching everyone around 

Seek peace in a pint

I think to myself

In childlike wonder

What would it be like to let go for a day?

Will my soul be mine, will it 

be part of the devil I swore not to be?

"A pint, or five, it doesn't matter anyway"

As I seek peace in a source within

To let go of moral

Of life and of soul

I'll be honest with you I'm not sober anymore

Drunk in this ecstasy, I know

That no man will ever love me like I do meself

But is it really worth all this pain?

I do not know

Yet I pour

Another little piece of heaven and hell 

With me trapped under 

That wickedly spell. 


~Chenu 


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